Monday, June 18, 2012


“Animation is about creating the illusion of life. And you can't create it if you don't have one.”
-Brad Bird

For the past month, my work ethic has been paralyzed due to me searching for a productive balance while still living life for what it is.  I reflected back upon how I've been living in comparison to others my age and I can't help but feel that I've missed out on a chunk of my youth... I won't dig too much into it here, but let's just say I feel like a stick in the mud, often opting to try drawing or do something productive with myself over anything much else - friends, family, relationships...  But I need to continue letting myself being consumed by this dream and passion if it is to ever become a reality; I am not the most talented or the fastest artist, so my work ethic is all I have.  But what part of me am I willing to sacrifice to preserve that ethic?

I also noticed that in my independent studies, I'm very inattentive and easily distracted.  Not good.  Need self-discipline and focus.

I'm really hoping getting back into the classroom and drawing alongside motivated peers will be the push to help me snap me back into it, but I feel that is quite dangerous because I would be relying on the outside forces around me and not from within myself.

Venting.  Maybe I'm just hitting a limit and getting some kind of tunnel vision, maybe I'm just being a bitch.  Hopefully by pouring a little of this in writing, it gets juices flowing a bit.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012